Sigmund Freud’s Psychodynamic emphasizes the importance of unconscious psychological process and experiences in growth development of an adult. It also mentions how it can affect the next generation due to tendencies developed by our parents.
With that said, this blog entry focuses on both me and my parents experiences as childhood and reflect on how it shaped the both of us into who we are today. Below are excerpts from an interview I conducted with my mother, Macaria V. Abalos.
Can you tell me a childhood story of yours?
Noong 5 years old ako, naligaw ako sa military camp. Sabi sa akin ni mommy lumayas ako. Pasaway ako, so lumayas nga ako. Nagkataon kalbo rin ako noon. So nahanap lang nila ako dahil nag-rereflect yun araw sa ulo ko…
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Macaria V. Abalos, mother
After hearing that story, I began to immediately recall what my mother used to call me. She would always call me, “pasaway” when I was younger because I was playful, loud, etc. Glad to know that my “pasaway”-ness came from my mother haha.
Although being “pasaway” generally disappears when people grow older, I think it’s okay to be “pasaway” when we are kids. Although of course, seeing a “pasaway” adult is kinda a turnoff.
Can you tell a childhood story of mine?
Nung bata ka, pinalayas ko kapatid at si tito frank (stepdad) mo. Paggising mo sa umaga, umiyak ka ng todo begging me to take them back. During that time, I was suffering from postpartum depression.
Macaria V. Abalos, mother
After hearing this story, I begin to rationalize the way I behave. Most of my close friends would say that I worry a lot. I’m that friend who would always ask, “are you okay?”, “nakauwi kna ba?”, etc. If I were to be honest, I always have the fear of people, especially those close to me, leaving me for whatever reason. Perhaps this is where the fear stems from?
Erikson’s eight stage of psychodevelopment
At this point of the blog, I shall be looking at the first five stages of psychodevelopment based on Erikson’s model and evaluate with a scale of 1-10, 1 being dystonic (More Negative) and 10 being syntonic (more positive).
- Trust vs. Mistust – 5
- Autonomy vs Shame & Doubt – 4
- Initiative vs. Guilt – 6
- Industry vs Inferiority – 5
- Identity vs. Role Confusion – 5
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