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Moi

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Ma Famille

Il y a cinq dans famille. Moi, ma mére, mon pére, ma sœur et mon frère

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Mes amies

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Ce sont mes amis

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Sigmund Freud’s Psychodynamic emphasizes the importance of unconscious psychological process and experiences in growth development of an adult. It also mentions how it can affect the next generation due to tendencies developed by our parents.

With that said, this blog entry focuses on both me and my parents experiences as childhood and reflect on how it shaped the both of us into who we are today. Below are excerpts from an interview I conducted with my mother, Macaria V. Abalos.

Can you tell me a childhood story of yours?

Noong 5 years old ako, naligaw ako sa military camp. Sabi sa akin ni mommy lumayas ako. Pasaway ako, so lumayas nga ako. Nagkataon kalbo rin ako noon. So nahanap lang nila ako dahil nag-rereflect yun araw sa ulo ko…

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Macaria V. Abalos, mother

After hearing that story, I began to immediately recall what my mother used to call me. She would always call me, “pasaway” when I was younger because I was playful, loud, etc. Glad to know that my “pasaway”-ness came from my mother haha.

Although being “pasaway” generally disappears when people grow older, I think it’s okay to be “pasaway” when we are kids. Although of course, seeing a “pasaway” adult is kinda a turnoff.

Can you tell a childhood story of mine?

Nung bata ka, pinalayas ko kapatid at si tito frank (stepdad) mo. Paggising mo sa umaga, umiyak ka ng todo begging me to take them back. During that time, I was suffering from postpartum depression.

Macaria V. Abalos, mother

After hearing this story, I begin to rationalize the way I behave. Most of my close friends would say that I worry a lot. I’m that friend who would always ask, “are you okay?”, “nakauwi kna ba?”, etc. If I were to be honest, I always have the fear of people, especially those close to me, leaving me for whatever reason. Perhaps this is where the fear stems from?

Erikson’s eight stage of psychodevelopment

At this point of the blog, I shall be looking at the first five stages of psychodevelopment based on Erikson’s model and evaluate with a scale of 1-10, 1 being dystonic (More Negative) and 10 being syntonic (more positive).

1. Trust vs. Mistust – 5
2. Autonomy vs Shame & Doubt – 4
3. Initiative vs. Guilt – 6
4. Industry vs Inferiority – 5
5. Identity vs. Role Confusion – 5

The Johari window shows my opinion on myself as well as the opinion of other people in regards to me.

The upper left plane shows how me and the people around me view me

The upper right plane shows how other views me, I don’t

The lower left shows how I view myself, but how others don’t see me as

The lower right shows what both me and others know. This a region of possibilitiles.

It is apparent that what I know about myself and how others primarily view me is that I’m friendly. This is something I really know because my friends always point it out to me.

Most of what I wrote was not written by other people, which leads me to believe that maybe I am not like that.

Other people wrote a lot of things about me that honestly surprised me. I myself did not consider myself “solid af” and “photography af” myself until other people wrote it down.

The lower right is empty because that is the plane of potentials. No one knows what is there, so to keep that in spirit, I wrote nothing.

Overall, the result of this activity surprised me because other people wrote a lot of things about me that I wouldn’t consider I am. Although I am disappointed that most of what I wrote isn’t how others look at me, the positive response I got makes up for that disappointement.

Questions

1) How was your challenge? Share with me how it went.
2) What was easy? What difficult?
3) Did you modify anything for it to fit your ability to follow the challenge?
4) What is something new you learned about the self-care/emotion regulation process or perhaps something new you learned about yourself after completing the challenge.
5) Do you plan to continue doing this? If yes, how? If no, why not?

1. The challenge was relatively easy seeing that the challenge I proposed fits my hobbies and skill set perfectly. Just to give context, the challenge I proposed is a gratitude collage. The challenge requires me to take pictures of things/people/events/place that I am grateful for.
2. As stated above, I found the challenge relatively east and far from being difficult.
3. The only thing I modified were the additions of people, events, and things as an option to take a picture off.
4. Self-care also includes doing the things that you wanna be doing alongside the people that you actually care about.
5. Yes, its easy to take pictures

Collages

1. Although not precise, I do remember having a well balanced score in the test given in regards to the personality test. I guess my strength lies in my well rounded character, however that may present a problem for being too “well-rounded” means a lack of character. I can be kinder to myself by not belittling myself.
2. Proposal: Gratitude collage. Take a pic of something that made you happy.

Identify 3 unhelpful beliefs

For me the three unhelpful beliefs that I have are

1. Beleiving that everyone has an ulterior motive
2. Believing that I am inferior compared to other people
3. Believing that people can be categorized

What do I do to manage these beliefs?

Recently, I’ve been trying to trust people mo2e. Although the occasional doubt is still present every now and then, I tend to ignore my paranoid self and trust people more. I have friends that lift me up whenever I feel inferior to other people. They lift my self esteem. My biggest unhelpful belief, is the belief that people can be categorized. I manage this by trying to understant that all people are unique, that they cant be categorized within a limiting trait. To be honest, my methods aren’t full proof. A lot of times, I fail to control my biases.

What can I do to make it better?

I have to learn and accept the fact that my biases aren’t completely true. By learning that, I can control my thoughts better.

Time changes everything except something within us which is always surprised by change

Thomas Hardy

In Partial Fulfillment for SocSC 11: Understanding the Self

The PPCT model is a part of Brofenbrenner’s Bioecological model. it stands for Process, Person, Context, and Time.

In this blog post, I answer some of the questions my teacher asked in regards to this model.

1.What are the characteristics that you have at the moment (i.e. demand, resources, and force) and how does it affect people/society treat you? their expectations of you? how you survive into this world?

Just a little perspective, demand characteristics are characteristics that are obvious, or those that elicit an immediate response, this includes age, sex, height, etc. Resource characteristics are those not obviously seen, the opposite of demand, this includes characteristics like IQ, EQ, skills, past experiences, etc. Force pertains to to motivational force a person has.

My Demand

I am an 18 year Filipino male that is approximately 165 cm. I have black hair, brown skin, a beard (preferably), and dark brown eyes.

My Resource

I am currently studying in the Ateneo de Manila University under the BS Bio program with a scholarship from DOST. I have six organizations, all of which I am currently active in. Although I am pursuing a science course, I also have experience in filming.

Force

If I were to be honest, my main motivational force are my friends. We push each other to be the best that we can be and that allows me to go the extra mile in whatever I am doing.

2. Given this, what are the characteristics that you have that be a hindrance in your next four years of college?

If we were to analyze my characteristics, I think the only hindrance that I would have is my Force is not really consistent. If my force is my friends, then what would happen if they were gone? Let’s be real, we really can’t expect our friends to be their 100% of the time. All of us have our own lives and will be unavailable or worst leave depending on certain situations. I have experienced times when I don’t even wanna go out of bed because of the absence of a friend, and honestly this reliance is something that should be outgrown.

3. What are the characteristics that you have that can serve as resources that can help you thrive in your next four years of college?

Without a doubt the biggest resource (not to confuse with resource from the PPCT model) is my school Ateneo de Manila as well as my possible hindrance, my friends. Ateneo is considered one of the best universities in the Philippines. It contains a reliable libraries, outstanding personnel, and an active community. With the concept of “Magis” and “Man for others” in our hearts, this will truly be one of my biggest resource. Although I mentioned this as my possible hindrance, it is undeniable that my biggest resource however are my friends. They were with me most of the time, including high and low points. We help each other overcome trials and tribulations. I am truly grateful for my friends.

Hello there!

I am Marcus Sahagun, just your typical person found anywhere else. Like everyone else, I have my own dreams and aspirations. I aspire to be a doctor to help those who can’t afford those SUPER EXPENSIVE doctors. The path towards that dream long and is far towards the future however, that’s why let’s focus on the present.

Presently, I am doing my best to be the better version of me everyday. I am not doing this alone though. Fortunately for me, I have friends that I care about wholeheartedly. We help each other when we are down and inspire each other when we want to achieve something. I’m really grateful for having such awesome friends. My story would’ve been so sad and boring without them, and now you’re here witnessing my journey too!

Thanks for joining me! 🙂

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton